Hello Folks.
Not in a good place, slept Saturday and most of today off !
Things are getting harder with all light forward blocked from view or thoughts.
Altho these last few months have been thinking a lot and many answers I feel have been forced on me to accept, whether I want to or not.
1. Friends - I always held my friends in high regard and would often be there to help if I could, but the last 3-4 years has proven just how fickle that belief was.
Of the many so called friends I have tried to reach out too, less than 5 even bothered to reply!. Yesterday finally my mind was made up.
The 4 friends who have reached back are all that I need, that includes 1 friend from USA, who one day we hope to finally meet up in person one day, I have no need of the. rest !!
I cannot be arsed to remove them from my friends list on Facebook as it just takes too long, I will just no longer follow them.
2. those who I have played guitar with, only 2 of them bothered over the last 3-4 years to respond to messages I have left or general enquiries apart from 2.
Now altho I am now a full on recluse, and I do not expect to pick up a guitar again (never say never tho) the rest of ya feel free to delete me again as I do not need the stress of wondering why you cannot spare a few mins to contact me.
3. As mentioned above these days I am a full on recluse, and generally this is making me happy, until I start to wander about other people who I thought were friends, starts to ware me down and causes my depression to keep getting lower n lower, so the sooner I forget about those who I do not think I care the better things will be for me.
4. My marriage is no longer a marriage or at least does not feel it, we have minimal contact and even less to say to each other. We are just 2 people who have given up 100% and just don not care anymore.
Not that I mean we are gonna split up or anything, as I believe without each other we are both doomed, altho Lynne seems happy enough with our kids so would survive any further split.
But I do not feel like part of this family anymore and to be honest my thoughts about this are, I am happy to vegetate in bed, until my time on this horrible place is over!.
5. As Lynne shows no interest in getting me interested in going out of Vincent. When I can I will give it a good service and then next March/April (if I am still here) will be SOLD OFF, as without Lynne to encourage me and the fact that we seem not to want to goto places, there is no point in me keeping Vincent.
5. The tRansit, have been trying all year to get outside to give it a real good clean and tidy up, but at this stage still not able to do it. I can't drive the thing any distance and we cannot afford to keep it, so that is an ongoing project that I will try n get round to as just want it SOLD OFF.
6. After repeated discussions about Lynne's car, and her not bothering to do anything at all about getting her licence, as soon as I can get down to were it is stored, I will get it ready to sell off.
These are just some of the things that have been making my life unbearable and I have come to a final conclusion and are now finally in my my and have ended all thoughts or care anymore.
There are other things that are taking the place of the above, non yet in a positive vain, sadly but that is how it is. I hope that with dealing with all the negative shit first, I can eventually only be left with something positive to try n rebuild a new life for myself.
Other items added today to my new website - 11th September 2012
28th December 2019 - CBRTIM Related Items Sold
6th December 2019 - CBRTIM Related Items Sold
13th August 2019 - CBRTIM Related Items Sold
7th August 2019 - CBRTIM Related Items Sold
24th June 2019 - CBRTIM Related Items Sold
6th June 2019 - CBRTIM Related Items Sold
10th March 2014 - CBRTIM Items SOLD.
Other Hobbies/Workshop Photo Album.
10th March 2014 - Various Hobbies - Workshop Update.
Other Vehicles Owned Photo Album
10th March 2014 - Honda Big One CB1000F (P).
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