12th June 2023 - Life n Grimes of Mr C

Today's tune is from Meatloaf

This tune, takes me back to when I first Saw Lynne so many years ago, and I still feel the same way, but just no longer important to her or her ability to help me, when I need her tee most.........

She was beyond my dreams, of ever having someone so special, I even gave up teh drugs to make sure I stood the best chance in keeping her,  Alcohol took m a bit longer.

I do not know who I did it, I think I just went Cold Turkey, but I am not 100% convinced Lynne was happy with the person after the drugs were outa my system.

I know I was different person afterwards, not as much fun I suppose, I do not know how to explain it................................

But from that first meeting in time came our 4 children and a ahouse we brought, all things I never expected to have.................................................

Now it looks like it's all over, except if I can get to Scotland and find what I am looking for and maybe come back or stay up there, but you never know, we may be able to recover in time........

I wonder, if this is how I am loosing Tim, Then how can I be expected to survive if we were to loose another child ???

Or is my illness mixed up in all this shit ?????

I am hoping today I can stay sorta less negative and distraught that I have been as the minutes tick by till Ken or Ben ring me about the transit........................................

Not many eBay sales this weekend, but they are all processed ready for postman on Tuesday......

On teh slightly positive side, the peavey feedback destroyer and Cortex hdc100 both have watchers, so fingers crossed will get bids for next weekend................

Depending on what happens tomorrow, hopefully will get more disco related items listed ready to start next Saturday..............................

Well parts not arrived !

If they had only asked last week when they ordered, I could have had teh items brought and delivered next day !!!!!

I cannot take anymore of this will it be sorted or not, so tried for over an hour to phone Ken n Ben, but on-one answered the phone.

Gonna ask for bill and see if I can afford to get the transit brought back home!

As my last wishes/ plans are now not gonna happen...........................