Hi Folks.
Another pissed off silent day, were I did not get as much done as I hoped.
It look's as if somehow, I am gonna have to do it all myself!
So today I am gonna look to see if i can chop my day up into 1 Hour Segments to spread myself around.
I did not get anymore tidying & sorting in our bedroom sorted, I did go up there 3-4 times during the day, but was so pissed off and depressed I went to bed instead.
I did try to speak to Lynne last night, but it's her mums birthday and she was not up to it, so got up into the computer room, feeling frustrated. But I should know today of all days is to stay away from her.
The Model Railways listings are progressing ok, and can't wait to see what happens after 26th when they go live.
All being well get loads of watchers n bids, and that will give me some confidence to get more items listed :) :)
I cannot wait to start on the transit, as for me that will mean I am on the way to getting ready. As well as seeing something that I need to happen, to help me continue.
I am looking at poss Feb-April 2023 to head off to Scotland, Sooner if the Van is done, as this house is so depressing, and destroying my will to live.
I am hoping for a good summer in Scotland before the weather changes and probably gives me pneumonia or something and then hopefully the end will be quick.
At this stage I cannot see me coming back to this house, unless there is a drastic change in our relationship and my depression has fucked off!
That is even if Lynne is willing to come that early and even bother to see if things can improve for us.
As for CBRTIM, I will be going down the workshop this week sometime to say goodbye, so what will happen to him I do not know.
I was planning on taking the cat with me, but I do not feel it would be right for him, or even if i have the willpower to look after him properly, he has remained pretty distant from me these last few days. I wonder if he is picking up my moods n shit.
The last thing I will sell, just before I go will be my Computer n screen. I was thinking of taking them with me, but with no internet, nor phone, I am not sure it will be worth it.
As for any friends I have left I will try n contact them in the new year to say goodbye and to thank them.
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