26th January 2023 - Life n Grimes of Mr & Mrs C

in a better place today, that special peaceful zone, that I have somehow found.
So I am hoping it will help me have a good day.

With me adding some of the very early "Life n Grimes" posts from 2012, and couldn't help certain words registering in my mind.

One of them is " Closure" ??

" noun

• 1.an act or process of closing something, especially an institution, thoroughfare, or frontier, or of being closed:"hospitals that face closure"
• 2.(in a legislative assembly) a procedure for ending a debate and taking a vote:"a closure motion"

verb

• 1.apply the closure to (a debate or speaker) in a legislative assembly."

What the bloody hell does that mean ?

ok it has been 10 years for us, but for me being drugged up on antidepressants, Timothy's passing only seems like a couple of years ago...

But Closure ??? not a bloody clue.........
Certainly whilst that Shit is still alive and our Son is gone!

My Friends across speak of closure when the watch the death sentence being carried out on a criminal that has taken family/friends lives.

I can understand them getting some closure from that as the person who took a loved one, is not living a normal life and laughing at those who have had there lives destroyed!. 

My feelings are mixed, and probably not helped by the loss of memory issues.
But they range from Anger, Frustration, Hatred, being forced to accept what happened, lack of support from the relevant health authorities.

I have taken myself of my Antidepressants against my Dr's advise, but I cannot and do not want to spend my life taking them with all the side effects.

So now to my list above we can add volatile emotions, often tears just fall uncontrollably, do not feel safe with people around me.
I am now very unstable and volatile, which I do not believe is me at all.

So Closure ??? for me is just a word that means nothing at all ......................
 

Looks as if my water works issues are carrying on from yesterday :( :( 

Just had a return request from an ebay buyer, apparently the information ebay added to the description was incorrect !

And altho it is eBays fault I have to accept the return and refund him, normally not an issue, but its just over £72.00! and I do not have that much in my bank account at the moment.
Bloody eBay have with held funds putting me into an unauthorised overdraft !!