Hi Folks.
I managed to get around 3 hours sleep last night, and this morning I am feeling blue and somewhat a little down.
But not depressed (I do not think ?)
I just do not know, all I know is I need to get out today, so I phone Donald n Val, to see if they are in and fancy a visitor.
They said we gotta take dog to vets, but will be in so we agreed after 2pm.
So this left me some time to fill, I needed to take my mind of going outside and the fear I have of it once again.
So it's back to me computer which as usual I have left on all night and it's still working this morning, but I find no joy in that today :( :(
Posties arrives with a very small box, for me to sign and we have our usual few mins chat, what I had not noticed was the Micky (the cat) had slipped outside!
I only knew about that when I started to close the door and he bolted inside!
Altho this worried me sick, I was also glad that he came in as I would have panicked like shit when I realised he wasn't somewhere in the house with me.
Micky, altho sometimes shows an interest when we go to the door, this is the first time he has been outside, since we brought him home!
Whilst working on the "1st November 2022 - Various Hobbies - Computer" I put Bat out of hell on in the background, and then I turned it up and started to sing and the tears flowed...
I may not be able to Dj anymore with these emotions, but I believe my love of music is very slowly starting to come back.In private at least..
Ended up to listening to 3 more albums before heading outside.
Dam the bloody transit, once again he went into go slow mode with the turbo light on! it's not done this for over a month, and thought it was just down to the transit basically being unused over the last 4 years. It certainly did not miss a beat when we went away and did over 200 miles a few weekends back.
So I think it's gonna have to be taken in and looked at:( :(
But these intermittent issues are a sod to resolve and often cost shed loads of money as they try n chase the fault down, often with several visits before it's solved.
But at the same time I cannot risk putting the Scotland trip in Jeopardy !
In the end he decided to play ball a ran alright for the rest of the journey there and back home...
Donald's n Val's home is a refuse for me, I can chill out n relax and we chat about anything and everything, even my health and Val's suggestions do help me a bit.
Surely I should be getting this sort of help from Lynne and the professionals ???
But I don't and am just grateful I have someone who is happy to listen and try n help guide me, without making me feel 2" small.
I got home few hours later than I have pencilled in, and virtually went straight to bed, for a relax n read. Next thing Lynne's there with my dinner!
But instead of getting up I just went back too sleep.
Right off to get today's (4th Nov) computer album done.
Laters Folks
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