So now I can carry on updating, tidying up the albums on my website.....

All my fault as ran out of SSD space whilst recovering files from faulty hard drives and just ran out of space!.

So on boot up the kernel could not create to operating system.

Luckily update wise, there has not been any as I have been pretty much confined to bed and thinking!.

I have started to accept a few things about myself !

Not that I want to, but because I have proven them to be fact!.

1. I need to move some heavy items around in the back of the transit, and I can no longer lift them, let alone move them to storage under the bed!.

Now none of these are really heavy and just a few years ago, I would not have thought twice about picking them up and putting them some where else......

2. Asking for help is a total waste of time! and even if I get a positive response, nothing gets done, or it has gotten dark, or I am in so much pain and anguish that I have gone to bed!.

So fast coming to the conclusion that the Conversion, Getting Vincent  ready for MOT and sale, and god forbid working on CBRTIM, Clearing out the sheds, getting items ready to list ETC.

Just means that I will as usual be stuck in my prison cell and be miserable and angry, that I cannot do what I want !

Only time will tell now, what is going to happen.

3. I am so down and have no motivation to sort items and get them listed as it is a total waste of time, if I am unable to achieve the goals and getting away in hope of starting to resolve some if not all of my issues.  

So the stuff just piles higher and higher !

4. The Specialists are refusing to do anything about the kidney stones that are wedge in th epipes and have there refusal in writing!.

So what is the point , of taking the other meds, that will at least other symptoms and be able to live with, When the major issue that is holding me back from doing anything ond not abble to control my bowls, which is making evertherything so unbearable!.

I suspect over the next week or 2 I will just give up again,  as non of my wishes are gonna happen now.

I am just a broken man, who does not want to live any loger and have been pushed away by so many that I just want to be on my own!

But that is never gonna happen, as no money, not well enough to get things done, so I maybe could get away from this solitary confined prison.

Hopefully something will start to happen to help me get some motivation to get more items listed 

Work done today!

8th November 2022 - Discussions and Planning the Conversion