Good Morning Folks.Another day dawns, and I am once again blessed with being still at total peace with myself, and so relaxed, I am finding it somewhat over powering.But it is a great ride to be on at this time instead of the 10 years of shit, that luckily most of the time, when out with friends I managed to hide.Other times I just couldn't cope, but no one said anything and just let me deal with it my own way.I have certainly missed the rally scene this year, after spending so long looking forward to getting back out there with the disco, but we all know how that dream imploded in such a hurtful way.And we are sure, that because of not being out there, that has contributed to the way things turned out for us this year.Even now I still cannot be around many people or crowds, and I would not even dream of going shopping or walking down town, as I know I just would not cope with it!.But this week so far has been a real eye opener, of what my and our lives may be like if I can find the peace, acceptance, grieve for Timothy and many other issues.The deterioration in my health this year has been massive and certainly soul destroying as it almost consumed me.But the positive note is that finally we have a diagnosis, and I just need to start re-taking my meds for that and hopefully it will slow the progression down a fair bit. But at the same time, I need this peace we are currently in, to be permanent, which has given the trip to Scotland a whole new meaning and hopefully instead of ending it all as I thought, we now have a chink to grab onto and hopefully that will be enough for us to start to fight back to back once again.It's just a shame that Lynne is not able to come with me full time, but with only a few years left till she retires, she has to think about here pension, as we will need that as I do not have any money left as it was all spent on the Disco & the Model Railway!.Even the struggle daily to be able to get anything done, is not getting me down like it was!, (Long may that continue), but the task ahead of me scares the shit out of me, so I am trying not to look at what I have to achieve and the mess around me, that for once is slowly disappearing and am looking forward to a lot less cluttered house and hopefully my life will be like that as well. In fact I think our lives are about to change in a massive way, and it will probably take most of 2023 to bare fruit.